Beauty From Chaos
Breathing is uneasy, panic is suffocated by the unconditional love and protection of the one who holds the power to create beauty from chaos.
Although anxiety rises, calming inhales fill my nostrils as we travel to a gray part of town.
It’s the place, the one where as a little girl she tainted my view of love and innocence.
You call us to forgive, but I how do we do that?
Trusting you is difficult. However, this is what you ask from us.
We need peace, so what you ask, we will do.
One in ten children will be sexually abused before the age of 18, and 90% of abuse victims know their abuser. However, in some cases we are too young to remember the name of our abuser, we aren’t even sure what age it actually happened. Most of us spend half our lives convincing ourselves that it never happened. As a result, this event goes without being solved or talked about for years. When we can finally admit it to ourselves, it is hard to get the abuse out of our head. It haunts us in a sense, and can have negative affects on our relationships with other people. How can any beauty come from this?
Pain is physical suffering or discomfort caused by illness or injury. Beauty is a combination of qualities, such as shape, color, or form, that pleases the aesthetic senses, especially the sight.
The abuse that you experienced is the suffering, and the discomfort is what you feel whenever you are reminded of the situation. In order for us to get past this uncomfortable feeling, we have to acknowledge that it did happen, but it was not our fault. We did nothing wrong, and we need to learn that the guilt we carry, shouldn’t be our burden.
When we work through the emotions and trauma we’ve experienced, when we talk about it (hopefully with a licensed therapist), we give ourselves a chance to shape and form our minds in a healthy way. We give ourselves the chance to create a beautiful, stronger person with confidence and qualities that can overpower hurtful memories. The discomfort means you have some work to do, and no, the pain won’t go away if you just “forget” about it.
So do not wait if you have been a victim of abuse. Start talking! Work through the emotions, and give yourself a chance to live without the guilt you shouldn’t be carrying in the first place.
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